It's all about how you feel about yourself. Gaining muscle and feeling more trim and fit is a good thing. Fitting into an old pair of jeans--also a good thing. But I find that I can't focus on these things. If I focus on how I look I am losing the battle. It's not about how I look. It's about doing something brave, centering, and peaceful. It's about being a better person.

Fitness can do that. But not when you are in an aerobics class that emphasizes inches or tightness of specific body parts. It is holistic. My body, my mind and my spirit are all part of it. This is a battle to let go of what other people think about me. It isn't even a competition. It is simply growth. I need to get back to regular Yoga practice to balance me on this journey.

My goals for the rest of the week. Quit obsessing over food...inches...and getting promoted in Judo. Start focusing on regular yoga practice whether it be by myself or in a group.