Gokyu

We go for the examination on Saturday. The Sensei taught us how to go from a standing to sitting position in preparation for the exam. I am racking my brain and trying to remember all of the rules/vocabulary that we need to memorize. My throws aren't great, but I also have had less time to practice and there is no one my size, gender or height in our class. Ouchi gari, O soto gari and De Ashi barai are okay. But Ippon Seio nage and the hip throws are not as good. On Wednesday I went to practice with hubby, but there was another man their his size so I let those two work together and sat out for a bit. Someone had to watch our daughter as the childcare ended early on Wednesday. My husband had said that I could stay and he would sit out but it would have been silly because I am only 5'1" and the other guy was easily 6'1". The Sensei actually apologized because he had me sit out the last five minutes before I had to leave, but he didn't know I was leaving early because I didn't have a chance to tell him because we were late getting there. I honestly didn't mind and I learned a lot. The Sensei at least trusts my Ukemi enough now to let me get thrown. I think I have been ready for a while because it didn't hurt at all even when my hubby threw me full force. It actually felt strangely good especially when hubby nailed a throw. I think the power of a good throw is something that is addictive.

Still working on weight loss. I am attending an anonymous meeting online. I love to exercise. That really isn't the issue. It is controlling what I eat which is more difficult for me. But I come from a family that puts on weight easily so I have to be more restrictive than I would like. Mostly I am just trying to make a commitment not to eat fried fast food or deep fried foods. And I want to completely cut out sugar until I lost the 30 pounds that I need to lose. It is about discipline but it is also an emotional thing that comes from the past. Judo helps (and yoga when I do it) because I am able to feel confident and like me for me right now. I may be a little fat but my kesa gatame is brutal and that is a nice feeling. ~